The moment when it becomes clear that sometimes the right thing to do is what we do not want to do.
Opened Eyes
The only suffering we remember is our own. Only when it happens to us do we open our eyes to notice the millions of other people who have faced the same fate or one much worse.
Quote of the day
“But life is sweet, though all that makes it sweet. Lessen like sound of friends departing feet; And death is beautiful as feet of friend. Coming with welcome at our journey’s end.”
James Russell Lowell
Trespasser
Today, I decided to sit outside a Starbucks and read in the cold to get into the spirit of my book. The book is about Peter Matthiessen’s journey in Nepal. As I sat out there I noticed that there were a couple of conversations exchanged between the Starbucks manager and what I believe to be a homeless man. I was focused on reading, so I only heard tidbits.
What I got from the tidbits was that the man was trespassing on the property. I was slightly confused since he was not on the Starbucks side of the complex, but rather the Bargain World. I do not know what he was doing, but within a few short minutes there were two police cars that pulled up the place in searching for this man. This was the first time that I had ever been there, but I found it quite interesting, but thought it was probably best to leave.
On my descent home, I turned up the temperature in the car to 75 degrees F. I turned on my seat warmers in attempts to warm up. When I exited on Steele St. I noticed two homeless men standing at the light, arguing. I was slightly afraid of the display that I saw. The argument seemed to be about territory because it was not friendly what so ever. One man seemed to be threatening to hit the other man with his cane. I did not know what to do or think because one of them seemed to be approaching my care, but instead kept walking. As I sighed with relief the light turned green.
I wondered if I should of gave them money even though I do not have a lot of money myself. However, I didn’t want to cause any more arguments between the two, and quite frankly I was terrified of the whole incident. As I continued my way back to campus, I realize that even after 20 minutes I was finally warming up. I then began to feel for those three men that I saw in the past hour of my attempted reading escapade. I remember one time my brother Lyon talked and talked to a young homeless women to hear her story. What was the story of these men and how they came to be homeless? Would people show me compassion if I became homeless one day or will I just be seen as a trespasser?
Dreams
Some nights dreaming is better than real life, but waking from these dreams is a very cruel awakening.
Limitations
Sometimes I wonder what really our limitations? Are we really physically limited after an injury or are limitations largely a result of our fear of being injured once again? It is true that once you have been hurt, sometimes it is easier to hurt the same area again. However, if we constantly live in fear of our limitations, we will constantly find a way to work around them instead of conquering them.
Spring Semester 2012
Although I still have one more class that I will need to take in June, this is pretty much my last semester at PLU. It has been a long and rocky road. During my time here I have really grown into a different person. I do not think that the person from four years ago would recognize me now.
In this last semester I have two capstone classes. I am terrified of failing, but I think that is perfectly normal. At the same time I am excited to see the end product because I just learned today that for English we are going to create a chap book that consists of about 20 something pages of our poetry. This is exciting because I do not know how much I will write in the future, but this book will be a keepsake of my ability to write. In creating this book, I will try to write more often because as a writer, it is important to write everyday. Not to mention, I enjoy writing and it is a something that I like to do to soothe and relax me.
Huntington Beach
As the sun sets I know that there will always be a bright tomorrow. No matter what comes along it will be dealt with and in the end it is beneficial to me in one way or another. The beauty of this beach had reminded me to always remember to bask in the beauty of the world and do not forget to enjoy life’s gifts.
Hope
In our times of needs, our family and friends are the one that help restore our hope. Lean on them when needed, but also let them lean on you.
Memories
Memories are meant to remind us of all the happy times with our loved ones –but we should need to differentiate the good reminders and the memories that should remain in the past.
